On our first date, I told you I was flighty. Impatient. Easily bored.
I don’t paint my nails because I can never sit still long enough
for even one coat to dry. I don’t fold my laundry because I hate the routine. I would rather buy new cutlery than wash my old ones.
Maybe I’m lazy. Maybe I have no motivation. Maybe I’m just looking for somebody to grab my shoulders and give me a shake and explain what normal is and why I should do it. But sometimes I brush my teeth for seven minutes straight because it just feels right. Some nights
I put my pillow on the opposite end of the bed because I’m still hopeful that I’ll wake up differently if I sleep differently. I never do.
Sometimes I forget that I’m reading in the middle of flipping a page,
instead struck by the thought we would rather make paper than oxygen, would rather have one less life-source than one less novel. I wonder about priorities. I wonder about people who think it’s necessary to match their socks when they leave the house every morning as if that’s what determines their character. I wonder about people who carry around purses that contain nothing but gum. I wonder about people who spend all their hours at a desk and then return to their house to pass the night alone in a cold bed with a frozen dinner. I wonder if they think that money will make them happier than other humans. I don’t like kissing when I have lipstick on, because I’m afraid of leaving a stain on a cheek, as if I’m marking my territory somewhere I don’t belong, as if I’m trespassing on camera. I stay up for twenty hours a day and spend the other fours hours knowing that the longest a person can stay alive without sleep is ten days. I wonder if my nervous system has begun to break down, leaving me nervous and broken along with it. I don’t understand the pills the doctors prescribed me even though they told me I was just upset over being broken up with. I told them I wasn’t upset, I was morose. I was downtrodden. I was a leaky ship; still afloat but getting lower under the weight of the water every second. I didn’t want to sink. I wanted to sail. But they didn’t tell me that the happy little green and white pills would make me plateau. On our first date, I said I felt flat. Not the kind of flat of calm water on a windless day, but the kind of flat that you associate with deflated balloons. All out of air or out of breath or struggling to find any words left. I felt like the kind of flat that musicians hate. That I hate and I can’t play a single instrument. On our first date, I think I told you I would understand if you didn’t stay. Nobody did and I never blamed them. I was too busy wondering about people who believed in numbers and the healing power of yoga on 3 a.m mornings and tying their shoes without kneeling down to notice when they left. I am stuck inside of a world that I don’t quite understand, with people I never seem to connect with.

Posted on Tuesday, 30 September

FIRST DATE CONVERSATION (K.P.K)

This is too real

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Posted on Sunday, 28 September

jbetcom:

Coldplay - Parachutes - 2000

Original album cover

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Posted on Thursday, 25 September

awesomepeoplehangingouttogether:

Robin Williams, Richard Pryor and Burt Reynolds

Posted on Thursday, 25 September

loving this album

Posted on Tuesday, 16 September

coldplay:

Here’s Chris performing A Sky Full Of Stars on the piano for the first time, for SiriusXM Radio - http://youtu.be/PH-k_fqpcco

That’s my mic! Lol

Posted on Tuesday, 16 September

1dteenwolfaddict:

How to lose all your friends in one easy step

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Posted on Tuesday, 16 September

popemorose:

hornyteen1936:

the baby boomer culture: how an entire generation literally will not shut up about young people doing things they enjoy

The Divorce Culture: how an entire generation couldn’t keep it together, and forgot how to not project their insecurities onto children.

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Posted on Tuesday, 16 September

vicemag:

I Attended a Pug Pool Party in Staten Island 

Every year, the Staten Island Pug Meetup hosts a pug pool party where pug lovers can watch pug swimming races and eat pug lollipops. Luckily for everyone who missed the event, Amy Lombard took these pictures.

Posted on Friday, 29 August

"To those dark horses with the spirit to look up… a recondite family awaits."